| i just need to get this off my chest..... |
[27 May 2006|01:52pm] |
im using lj cuz i didnt think this was appropriate for myspace......
yesterday one of my roomates was abducted from her home, and i can honestly say that i have never been more afraid in my life.....
i love her truly, and i dont know what i would have done if something had happened to her
luckily the police found her this morning, and she was unharmed.
she lives in huntington beach on the harbor....this rediculiously safe community....and she was just taken.
it sent horrid realizations through every part of me....and i couldnt stop thinking....what if shes hurt? what if shes scared?....shes all alone and i am powerless to help her
i prayed for the first time in over a decade.....and although i know that didnt ultimately help anything, at least there was the slim chance that she could hear me telling her to be strong, and feeling the love that i was sending her all night
i just dont get it
how can people be so disgusting????.....im so lost in this thought....obviously it was done for money, but what ever happened to getting a fucking job and working for what you get!?!?!?!
people in general have the ability to be so terrible, and do so many negative things.....and i just cant grasp why!
im sorry.....but i just needed to vent
love,
jessica
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| happy neew year |
[19 Dec 2005|05:07am] |
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Once wonder like mist rising in firefly.
Twice longer than dozing with dandelion
Amongst the long nights twisted with insight
Among one another.
Beneath crossed reasons
Our luster is wilted and no longer can alter
The visions worth living in repose.
It was in this,
Once, we spoke in rhythm to soft spoken melodies
Of pasts gone by.
Again, not he, nor she,
Just grandeur and titles.
Again, not once,
Not now, can we travel to night's lights
And visit our child's once hallowed hopes.
It was in this, those, where we wrapped our eyes
With darkness, or light, or whatever our year long
Hands could look towards.
Run, straight, fast.
In sunrise, intense in it's colors, but somehow
Lost in agenda and remembered in remorse.
We alone, once wondered in heart's mind,
Or in rising ambition,
but we were lost in creation.
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| so......how bout them lakers...... |
[28 Nov 2005|02:09am] |
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ok, so i get that live journal was made to do the following things....
1.)post about your life in general, the day to day stuff.......
2.)trying to keep ur homedizzles informed because u dont see them too often.......
3.)purposly posting things u know will either make ur friends jealous or emotional.....(but thats usually done under an anonymous setting).......
4.)venting, cuz ur parents dont love you and dont care about ur lameass teenage drama, so instead u post ur rage online, hoping to get positive reinforcement from ur peers
(not necessarily in that order)
well im here to tell u that live journal is so much more, and tonight, i, jessica elizabeth rinsky, have life altering news that will change ur life forever......
if u enjoy laughter, u must haul ur lazy buttoxs' over to the laemele 8 in encino, and watch sarah silverman be flipping hott, genius, funny, and abazing all rolled into one!
u must see.....(insert drum noises here)....
"JESUS IS MAGIC"
The film comprises Sarah Silverman's performance before a live audience interwoven with stylish musical numbers and backstage intrigue. Comedians Bob Odenkirk and Brian Posehn also make appearances along with Silverman's band, The Silver Men. Known as one of the funniest and most provocative people in comedy, Silverman has been compared to the legendary Lenny Bruce. Despite the current political climate, she takes on such pitch-black topics as September 11th, unwanted body hair, aids, and the Holocaust and spins them into decidedly un-PC comedic gold.
oh yea, and tomorrow at 9am i have my very first gyno. appt.......... papsmear here i come...... jeebiz i am so witty....
(and that my friends, is what the "LJ" is all about)
love, jessica
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| its just so ________....... |
[20 Nov 2005|10:46pm] |
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u know when songs mirror your life......it can either be a good image, or a bad image......but untamately it still makes u a lil teary eyed
i cant decide whether i love or hate that feeling
a lot of changes in my life lately
putting things into a greater perspective and all that jazzz
im so happy about next week!!!
so many loves return to me next week!!!
-aaryn
-dustin
-lisa
-monica
-perry
and so many more!!!!!!
so tickled i could piddle<3<3<3
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| this note is marked return to sender..... |
[24 Oct 2005|08:53pm] |
i just spent like...20 minutes writing a whole letter to "Life"
and then i erased it because it was a little too personal for live journal.
but i will say this.....
in this moment i am happy
and thats all i really can say
i mean ya, i have my ups and downs, everybody does, but ultimately.....these moments are all that matter right now.
i dont know what im getting at, im having a really difficult time with words for some reason.
i know most of you will either read this, or casually glance at it
u will make ur judgement about whether or not its worthy of a comment from you
u might even base that decision on whether or not i have commented recently on ur page
people are strange sometimes
i love you
truly i do, my friends are my everything and i am blessed with having each and every one of u as a part of my life.
oh ya, and my husband beats me.......
love,
jessica
ps - thank you sasha, tammy, and al for pulling me back to sanity<3
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| my first time... |
[23 Oct 2005|02:37am] |
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u know that saying..."theres a first for everything"
well....duh, of course there is
tonight was my first car accident...
the funny part was that i wasnt even doing anything illegal....and after all the times i changed lanes without signaling, all the speeding, and those few reds that i accidentally ran.....who would have known that my first accident would be caused by cold hands
my hand slipped on the wheel and turned into another car....the only other car on the freaking road! argh.....breath.....ok
i was more concerned with the cost of the damage to my car then anything else....money, or lack there of, is slowly ruining a lot of things in my life.
everyone is ok, and the cars are for the most part ok....
i wasnt scared tho, like....i feel like ive been expecting it for a while, i mean, for the past couple months everytime i have been on the freeway i have wondered what it would be like to drive an extra 5 inches to the right, into the wheels of a big rig or something....
what would it feel like to just drive full speed ahead....crash...the adreniline(sp?)......the rush.....just the experience......maybe even to die? i dont even know.....
dont get me wrong, this was an accident, but somethign about it felt relieving...like when i felt the initial hit and my head smacked the window, something is going to change in my life
starting tonight, something in my life is changing!
im nervous....hell, maybe im over analyzing (i tend to do that a lot) ....maybe i just loose all teh money i have saved and dont get to go to sb.....maybe my dad will finally talk to me after a month......maybe i wont feel the desire to run into trucks on the freeway anymore...i dont know
but it will be interesting to find out.....
love,
jessica
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| its 3:16 in the am...do u know where ur children are?..... |
[04 Oct 2005|03:16am] |
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1. Reply and I’ll write something about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
4. I will tell you my first memory of you.
5. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
6. I’ll then tell you something that I’ve always wondered about you.
7. Then post this in your own journal
ps - shana tova to all my jew and non jew hommies<3
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| i told u that condoms would someday rule the world....betcha believe me now huh! |
[26 Sep 2005|06:16pm] |
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Official Announcement:
The government today announced that it is changing its emblem from an Eagle
to a CONDOM because it more accurately reflects the government's political
stance. A condom allows for inflation, halts production, destroys the next
generation, protects a bunch of pricks, and gives you a sense of security
while you're actually being screwed.
Damn, it just doesn't get more accurate than that!
love,
jessica
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| THIS IS A MONUMENTAL OCCASION LADIES AND GENTS.... |
[13 Sep 2005|04:37pm] |
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I JESSICA ELIZABETH RINSKY AM NOW OFFICIALLY A LISENCED DRIVER IN THE STATE OF CALIFORNIA!!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
love,
j rin
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| fina - effin - ly!!!! |
[30 Jul 2005|06:12pm] |
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finally nikita came home after a whole month!
soooooooooooo glad to have her back*
i couldnt pick her up cuz of work, but her and sasha came to pick me up after my shift and it was simply glorious....I LOVE HER!
-we embraced as lovers often do.....mwahaha....and then we went back to her place
--the three of us met up with raquel and justin and headed off to toys r us...good times
-then all 5 of us went out to dinner at TGIF....wow....i love laughing like that....it just makes life a lil bit better
-afterwards we took a light nap and niki and i met up with mintzy and perry
--picked up jon
-then we proceeded to toast with the captain, and head up to the roof with hookah in hand and marvelous company about!
--hunter and matt stop by, and then sasha came back
alright, so rooftop hookah is officially the bestest thing ever, and it was a blast and a half to boot!!!
as the evening comes to a close....we are left with jon, perry, niki, and myself....reminising about the hours we spent with our friends on a lovely summers evening...with inappropriate conversation...and inappropriate touching..haha
random 7-11 run and a sleepover between two of the cutest guys ever ended our perfect welcome home celebration*
-fin-
oh ya.....AUGUST 5th
ROCK HORROR 80s NIGHT!!!!
all the cool kids will be there
will you????
love,
jessica
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| i havn't been in lj land in a while....woah |
[26 Jul 2005|04:52pm] |
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what do you do when the person you want to love....wants to love you back even harder?
but there is a catch...
you cant be together
your lives will never be able to harmoniously combine
this is why i don't allow myself to be alone with my thoughts
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AND
Mr. A to Z
the new cd from the one and only jason mraz is FUCKING AWESOME
i've listened to it twice already.....weeeeeee
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hope everyone out there in live journal land is having a beautiful and funtastic summer
leave me a message, let me know how ur doing<3
love,
jessica
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| just peachy.... |
[01 Jun 2005|12:20am] |
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i punched a hole in my wall tonight.....
love,
jess
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as of right now this is my pixie prom dress***
but who knows what else might come along...hmmm.....time will tell.....
i must admit that i am a tinge bummed that its not full length with a longer torso, but i love it!
any thoughts?
love,
jessica
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| !yay! |
[10 Apr 2005|08:26pm] |
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ITS MY BIRTHDAY IN 4 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can legally do the following things : ciggys, porn, sex, no curfew, adopt an AZN, and have sex...lol
BEING 18 IS AWESOME
love,
jessica
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| spring break |
[30 Mar 2005|01:15am] |
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i had a wonderful spring break filled with marvelous people and memorable moments*
this has been one spring break that i will never forget...
IF YOU HAVE ANY SPECIFIC MOMENTS THAT YOU REMEMBER, PLEASE COMMENT*
but so many things have changed on a one week period of time...its mind-boggling
idk, my head is in a daze, i should have gone to sleep hours ago.....
love,
jessica
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